Wounded, but Walking

Hello. First of all, let me just say that I have the best friends in the whole world. Thanks to all of you that have called to check in with me after my latest round of drama. As you may expect, I have good moments and bad, but the good moments are lasting longer now.

Dealing with the turn of events from last month has been hard, but comparatively speaking, it could have been a lot worse. It could be due to the fact that something that blew in like a hurricane and then blew back out again in such a short time was bound to feel a bit surreal and rushed. It could also be the ability to correctly categorize the experience in terms of other past experiences. While I didn’t walk away unaffected, I wasn’t crippled by it either. Not exactly a talent I ever wanted to cultivate, but the alternative seems much worse. If bad experiences are supposed to make us stronger, then I should have the emotional strength equivalent of lifting cars. Yippee.

So, while I am not rushing around trying to fill the void with useless activities, I am finding that I am focusing on other things that interest me. I have a new side project that I am researching right now. Perhaps its humble beginnings as a hobby may turn into a legitimate lucrative business, as is my hope. As I said, I am in the research phase for now, which means lots of trips to the book store as well as online research. I think it’s exciting because it is such a different direction for me and my creative “mojo” is being put on notice to pay attention and absorb everything.

I am not ready to post details about it yet, but chances are I have mentioned it to several of you sometime within the last year or so. Once I feel like I am more educated on the subject and am ready to push my plan into some sort of action, then I will be more likely to spills the beans here.

One other strange turn of events happened yesterday. I was on a website that one of my friends from high school created as an alumni site, and I came across a name I have been searching for years. I couldn’t believe it. He was someone I had a crush on and he never knew. I ran into him once over 10 years ago in a store and told him about how I felt about him back in school. At the time, my circumstances kept me from taking any sort of action and once again we lost touch. Yesterday when I saw his name and contact information, I couldn’t believe it. I sent him an email and I am hoping I hear back from him. After so many years, it would be great to finally be able to get caught up. I’ll let you know.

By the way, my title today is another song title. This one is a song by Nik Kershaw. Remember him? His big hit was a song called "Wouldn't it be Good?" and was featured in the Pretty in Pink soundtrack. Anyway, I came across his latest album one day a few years ago and I love it. This song in particular has sort of a big band/salsa sound to it. Anyway, it's been playing a lot on the soundtrack in my head, so it seemed like a good title for me today.